Hi All
Good evening. I m happy to meet you all again through my blog. Some times i wondered that how people are able to live their life away from family and friends. What will happen to their responsibilities as a son, husband, father, brother and so on...? How do their family members live without his presence in day to day life? Fine... atlast I got an answer to these questions. The answer is its just a "situation". I would like to share my personal experience to you all.
My job
I am working with HCL Technologies for the past 10 months. I was assigned to a network testing project working for a Bangalore based client. This project was supposed to be wind up some few months earlier. But it was winded up after 10 months from my joining date. So, i was suppose to find some other project to place myself in. That is the time my manager approached me for relocation to bangalore, since there is really a good project. By having the options in hand i thought ok... it will be a better / different experience for me to explore it than any other options. So i opted it. I have cleared a interview to step in to this project and one fine day i got a call from my manager to hear that i have cleared the interview and been selected and i need to report in bangalore from 5th of Sep. My home mates were ready to accept my decision but with some hard feelings that i will be away from home. Since, i love to be alone i have taken it little lightly and started the preparations to relocate.
Relocation eve
My wife was telling me, "how will i be in home without you??" I was convincing her that i will come every weekend to home, so no need to worry, you think that i am coming late everyday after you sleep and going to office so early before you wakeup. Despite of me consoling her, i had a small hiccup in my mind that how would i live my life without family? Did i take a right decision on relocation? I felt something strange in my heart. i never been away from home till. How would I be managing the loneliness? As I was with this mindset, my daugher called me "Appaaaa..."(with some raagam) i literally broke like that i wouldnt be able to hear that again and this is going to be my last day in life. And this time I started consoling myself that I will come home every week end, i am going bangalore just for a training and it lasts a week.
4th Sep
As per our plan myself and my father started bangalore in our car, since i am going via avadi i took my wife and kid to drop them there as she was going to my in-law's house. I left them in bus stand and as my daughter signed me tata with her innocent face, (she doesnt know that i am going bangalore and i will meet her again after a week) that time, some of my tears honored her innocence. I started showing some interest in unrelated topics and conversing with my father to avoid a deep centimental scene. We strarted by 11am from home and had a break after vellore to have lunch which we packed for us. After a nice lemon rice, curd rice and beans poriyal we started our drive and reached bangalore (guest house alloted for me) by 5.30pm. Along with father I have walked a stretch to find where my office is. To my surprise it is just a 30 min walk from my guest house. Again we walked back guest house and had a good sleep.
5th Sep
My father woke up by 7am and he had a bath and started his regular pooja at guest house itself. We were ready to leave the room by 8.30 and we had breakfast nearby hotel. There was a vishnu temple on the way to office and we visited vishnu he blessed us with little puliyodharai. My father had a plan to visit "Shiva bala yogi ashram" which is in jai nagara before catching his 2.30 brindhavan express. He signed me "TATA" some 2 kms prior to the office. Now I am literally alone in a new state where i dont know the local language itself. Again my heart swirls with sorrow and loneliness. As i am less self motivated, it took time for me to regain my shape. I didnt even tried to talk to my daughter as I dont have strength and had fear that i may cry.. Finally i reached office by 9.30 and as expected nobody was there except security. Around 10.30 Aravind (a known person for me) entered office and slowly one by one. Introductions, handshakes and some more formalities happened, luckily i had my laptop with me and it helped to start my work from the day 1 itself.
Overall the office is good, the ambience, people everything is fine. Lunch is providing by the client itself. No restrictions for browsing websites. Moreover we played TT for 1 hour. I was little bit relaxed and happy while been in office.
This time i need to motivate myself more and i know that i am doing it. I tried to find house for rent in the day 1 itself and I failed. Planning to get the house in 15 days and to get my family here within a month max.
Being away from home(atleast for the first few days) is not a easy one to do, that too having a lovely wonderfull wife and kid at home. I can realise now that how difficult that everybody lives being away from their home. Will update you the happenings.
You may think that I have blown up the situation and showing it big... but it was my raw feelings...
Bye!!
MSK
Good evening. I m happy to meet you all again through my blog. Some times i wondered that how people are able to live their life away from family and friends. What will happen to their responsibilities as a son, husband, father, brother and so on...? How do their family members live without his presence in day to day life? Fine... atlast I got an answer to these questions. The answer is its just a "situation". I would like to share my personal experience to you all.
My job
I am working with HCL Technologies for the past 10 months. I was assigned to a network testing project working for a Bangalore based client. This project was supposed to be wind up some few months earlier. But it was winded up after 10 months from my joining date. So, i was suppose to find some other project to place myself in. That is the time my manager approached me for relocation to bangalore, since there is really a good project. By having the options in hand i thought ok... it will be a better / different experience for me to explore it than any other options. So i opted it. I have cleared a interview to step in to this project and one fine day i got a call from my manager to hear that i have cleared the interview and been selected and i need to report in bangalore from 5th of Sep. My home mates were ready to accept my decision but with some hard feelings that i will be away from home. Since, i love to be alone i have taken it little lightly and started the preparations to relocate.
Relocation eve
My wife was telling me, "how will i be in home without you??" I was convincing her that i will come every weekend to home, so no need to worry, you think that i am coming late everyday after you sleep and going to office so early before you wakeup. Despite of me consoling her, i had a small hiccup in my mind that how would i live my life without family? Did i take a right decision on relocation? I felt something strange in my heart. i never been away from home till. How would I be managing the loneliness? As I was with this mindset, my daugher called me "Appaaaa..."(with some raagam) i literally broke like that i wouldnt be able to hear that again and this is going to be my last day in life. And this time I started consoling myself that I will come home every week end, i am going bangalore just for a training and it lasts a week.
4th Sep
As per our plan myself and my father started bangalore in our car, since i am going via avadi i took my wife and kid to drop them there as she was going to my in-law's house. I left them in bus stand and as my daughter signed me tata with her innocent face, (she doesnt know that i am going bangalore and i will meet her again after a week) that time, some of my tears honored her innocence. I started showing some interest in unrelated topics and conversing with my father to avoid a deep centimental scene. We strarted by 11am from home and had a break after vellore to have lunch which we packed for us. After a nice lemon rice, curd rice and beans poriyal we started our drive and reached bangalore (guest house alloted for me) by 5.30pm. Along with father I have walked a stretch to find where my office is. To my surprise it is just a 30 min walk from my guest house. Again we walked back guest house and had a good sleep.
5th Sep
My father woke up by 7am and he had a bath and started his regular pooja at guest house itself. We were ready to leave the room by 8.30 and we had breakfast nearby hotel. There was a vishnu temple on the way to office and we visited vishnu he blessed us with little puliyodharai. My father had a plan to visit "Shiva bala yogi ashram" which is in jai nagara before catching his 2.30 brindhavan express. He signed me "TATA" some 2 kms prior to the office. Now I am literally alone in a new state where i dont know the local language itself. Again my heart swirls with sorrow and loneliness. As i am less self motivated, it took time for me to regain my shape. I didnt even tried to talk to my daughter as I dont have strength and had fear that i may cry.. Finally i reached office by 9.30 and as expected nobody was there except security. Around 10.30 Aravind (a known person for me) entered office and slowly one by one. Introductions, handshakes and some more formalities happened, luckily i had my laptop with me and it helped to start my work from the day 1 itself.
Overall the office is good, the ambience, people everything is fine. Lunch is providing by the client itself. No restrictions for browsing websites. Moreover we played TT for 1 hour. I was little bit relaxed and happy while been in office.
This time i need to motivate myself more and i know that i am doing it. I tried to find house for rent in the day 1 itself and I failed. Planning to get the house in 15 days and to get my family here within a month max.
Being away from home(atleast for the first few days) is not a easy one to do, that too having a lovely wonderfull wife and kid at home. I can realise now that how difficult that everybody lives being away from their home. Will update you the happenings.
You may think that I have blown up the situation and showing it big... but it was my raw feelings...
Bye!!
MSK
Excellent post machi...it took me hard 30mins to read this blog. every line was dragging me into my past memories of similar pain when I was roaming throughout india for 4yrs and stationed in blore for 1.5yrs... whenever I step out of my house for a tour, I will feel broken... but also need to mention that there is no gain without pain..a very rich experience is what I gained during that time. hope its time for you now to gain your own experience....enjoy every bit of it......
ReplyDeleteI was actually expecting a masala blog, but this was a wonderful centimental one..well captured... though not very relevant it remembers me of this...."veedu varai uravu....veedhi varai manaivi....office varai appa... kadaisi varai HCL.."
little improvisation mr raguraman....(ka-navukku ka-naa...)
ReplyDelete"veedu varai uravu....veedhi varai manaivi....office varai appa... kadaisi varai COMPANY....
Mr.Msk, am happy that atleast now you made your mind to step out of chennai for a better offer...am the first person to raise my eyebrow, when you told us that you are relocating, it was a great surprise for me...bcos i know how attached you are to annanur railway station and home...i still remember the days in airtel that you would munch on the Verkadalai's and reach home for dinner at 11pm, even though i compel you to have dosai in central and move on...but now it is altogether a different game of life for you...ALL THE BEST...PLS BE HAPPY, you are just moving to blore, but in my case,i stepped out of india and came to a strange country like kuwait...without even forseeing the risks and i really felt the loss of family that time...
ReplyDelete"Udara nimitham bahukrutha vesham" which means various difficulties to earn a livelihood. In pursuit of job,we are forced to take some tough decisions most of them compromising in personal front. All of us (except Mahesh) have had this type of experience in our lives. Your blog made me remember that experience. That experience was sweet but painful nevertheless. Wish you'll have a good experience but hope you will return Chennai soon.
ReplyDeleteYou are lucky on one thing MSK. Its just 6 hours away from your home.
ReplyDeleteAnd yes i am thinking that you are showing the situation as big, because what ever i read, its just from your point of view on present status of yours, and its nothing when i start to think off that how & what your parents blog and their raw feeling would be ?
Also its nothing when i think off about your future status, say after 20 years.
Unlike your parents, Your busy official work will not allow you to think about your loneliness, where there is nothing else to engage them other than to think about their aloneness and just wait for the weekend to come.
Its a matter of getting a house, and may be in a weeks time you will have your daugher and wife again. So it shouldn't be that much tough for you.
So "Unakkum keezhae ullavar kodi, ninaithu paarthu nimmathi naadu" as everyone has to pass this, and life will teach us to live alone, like it thought our parents.
So do not worry about that and enjoy your official life, new place and climate as these are just a passing clouds.
And the sky without clouds is impossible as we will have to face many such passing clouds in life.
With an innocent smile, you daugher may have given a send off yesterday, but after 20 years, with the same innocent smile, you have to give her the same send off to her husbands house.
So reserve your raw feelings for that too because When you think about that,this loneliness is nothing.
Till now i have been trying to avoid the present siuation of yours, but when life demands me,
i will read this blog and my comments.
Reddy, Even Mahesh is out from family and lives alone. So what if he is in same chennai,he is learning a lot and ofcourse must be missing his family as he is now forced to do all house works like cooking, washing,etc.. which he was not doing it before.
ReplyDeleteReally touching
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